Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to cry?
It’s crazy how one week I can have a great and happy mindset, and then a week after it can change to the complete opposite.
I think because I am in a transitional period in my life, it is harder for me to feel secure. I know that living for every day, rather than the future or the past, sets my worries at ease and fills me with everlasting happiness. However, today and yesterday have been challenging. I find myself allowing my mind to control my emotions, along with my thoughts.
It seems like when it rains it pours!
It is harder to keep my head up when there are so many thoughts swarming through my mind. And as my thoughts grow negative, I find it much more difficult to get myself out of the syphon. As if I am now forced to walk 10 miles, rather than just the 5.
As long as I allow my mind to think bad thoughts, the hill will only grow taller and steeper.
I like to believe that these events are happening for a reason. Even if that reason is to only help me learn and grow from my mistakes.
Freeing my mind from the downward spiral of negative thinking can be hard, and right now I feel like it’s almost drowning me. However, when I write and express these feelings, it helps me ease my mind and I can feel a sense of relief. I also like to list everything that I am grateful for, as I know that there are many others in this world with less fortunate lives.
While speaking to my Mom about this matter, she said something that stuck with me. Our society has so many expectations, and when we don’t fulfill those (made up) expectations, we sometimes feel guilty, sad, or both. And at the end of the day, all anyone wants is to be happy. As long as we have food, water, and shelter to protect us, we should be happy and grateful. Many people in this world have to work hard for their food and water, and sometimes don’t even have a house which will protect them. Our society confuses us by making us believe we need more than we actually do. If we can take a step back, realize that our life isn’t as complicated as we make it out to be, and be grateful for what we have, then hopefully we can see through societies ways and make it back to true selves.
It is not easy to turn our challenging days turn into a great days. However, right now that is my goal!
“We must be the change we wish to see in the world.” — MAHATMA GANDHI
If anyone else is feeling like this or has felt like this, keep your head up and share your story! Help inspire others! 🙂